because I hope that 2 blogs in 2 days will inspire others to write

So, as you all know, I am back safe and sound from Kenya. It was absolutely amazing! There is way to much to tell you than I can possibly write in this blog, so I'll just wait till I see you later this month (I LOVE being able to say that!)
Instead, I'll update you with the drama of my life. Basically, on paper, it seems like it's all coming together, but I feel like it's falling apart. This growing up thing is happening WAY too fast for me
Example: I was planning on moving out in January, but will now be moving out July 15th! When Sarah's friend decided she wanted to live with us, we had to find a house immediately because she is not from the area and so didn't have the option of living at home for a while. The house is great, it's got 3 bedrooms and 1 bathroom (which should be interesting with 3 girls) and a nice living, kitchen, dinning, and sunroom. It's right next to a church which ownes it, so they'll take care of the grass, which is nice. And they are putting a fresh coat of paint on. It's in a little neighborhood but like a 2 minute walk from all these popular bars/restaurants and only about 5 minutes away from the metro station. Really, it is perfect. But just the thought of moving out FOREVER really scares me.
Example 2: I started my job at the CW yesterday (Tuesday). But on Monday, I went to see someone my internship supervisor knows at ABC. She knew I was starting here the next day, so i figured it was just going to be a meet and greet. BUT, she ended up having me meet with the new business manager and they told me that they are 99.9% sure that a job will open up in the next few weeks and then proceeded to ask me how I would feel about leaving CW "very quickly". AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!! Once again, sounds great, but it puts me in a really tough position. ABC is the #1 or #2 station in the market, while CW is the #5 in a 6 station market. And their are a lot more resources at ABC plus I'm already familiar with their programming from last summer. AND at ABC I get a salary plus 17% commission, while at CW, I only get a salary for the first 9 months and then I will be solely on commission, which is only slightly better at 17%. But, obviously, I've already started here and thus far it's going pretty well. I would just feel horrible if I quit after a few weeks, after they put so much energy into getting me settled. Once again: AWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!
Now that i've vented, i'll close on a sappy note:
While I was getting ready for my first day of work, the Kenny Chesney song (yes, no surprise there, I was listening to country music) "Beer in the Closest" came on and one of the lyrics goes something like we thought our college glory days would never end. I literally started to tear. THEN when I got home, my mom had developed my graduation pictures, which AGAIN made me sad. I told her that graduation was the worst day of my life.
Ok, I'll stop now. But, any input on my situation would be greatly appreciated.
I can't wait to see you all at the end of the month, that's literally the only thing that's keeping me going.
I LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MOON AND BACK!
Your grown-up friend:(